this is the hard part.

Since I’ve got two weeks off between jobs + a house that needs LOTS of work and updates, I’ve been spending as much time as possible at the house doing whatever I can to get it (more) ready for us to move in to.  That means getting up in the morning and getting the boys ready for the day, whether that means going to the babysitter’s house or staying home with Nana, and then only seeing them for another hour or so each day.  This is the hard part.

I keep thinking it will all be worth it.  I have only been going at these long days for a week or so but I feel like it’s been 10 years since I’ve spent any time with my kids and I really miss them.  I wonder if they think about me when I’m not around because they cross my mind 10 times a minute.  I know they’re fine without me around.  But what do they think?  Do they miss me?  I’m looking forward to moving into our house and living there as a family.  Dinners there, baths there, bedtime there.  Living with my husband there.  Seeing the improvements we make over time.  This is the hard part.

My mom is in town. She has been hard at work painting for me the last 4 days.  I can’t wait to show you what she’s done!  I’d be lost without her, my father-in-law, and my mother-in-law.  I asked my mom what she thought dad would be working on if he was still here with us.  She laughed and said, “probably whatever you told him to.” I sure miss him at times like this. I know he would love our house, flaws and all, and would do anything he could to help us make it better.  This is the hard part.

The house looks worse than it did when we bought it because it truly is a construction zone right now.  We keep asking ourselves how we ended up in a total fixer upper when we have no time and very little money to make it the way we want it.  We can’t keep beating ourselves up for our questionable decision making skills. We have to look to the future and realize how great this house WILL be one day.  This is the hard part.

I really do believe one day we will look back at these days fondly and admire the work that we did.  The love that our family shared with us throughout this process..  Their talent, their generosity, their time, their aching backs and knees, and the list goes on and on.  I just have to keep telling myself that it will be worth it. It won’t always be like this.  This right here, this is the hard part.

xo,
~C~

ready for change?

Well, well, well.  A few things have changed since I last wrote.  Like, oh, you know, we got a new house and I got a new job.

What the what!

Yep, we closed on our house (seen here and here) a couple of weeks ago.  Some issues came up (I’ll talk more about later, maybe) so we weren’t able to start in on our remodeling right away.  Sunday we said to heck with it and decided to move forward.

And I wasn’t looking for a job.  I worked in child welfare for 6 years and had no immediate plans of going anywhere else.  But another social work job in the mental health field found it’s way to me and I couldn’t pass it up.  No more night shift!  I’m going back to living like normal people instead of vampires.  Somebody say woot!  I start in a couple of weeks.  My new employer was kind enough to allow me some time to work on our house.


I have been so preoccupied and busy that I haven’t had much time to write.  Not a lot has changed with the boys, other than growing taller and smarter and older every day.  Theo sounds too old, saying things that he hears grown-ups say, like “last week I was at the store and I saw something and then I went to the car and probably saw everything everywhere…” and on and on and on.  I just love listening to his stories about nothing at all.  Dex is starting to try more and more words when prompted but I don’t feel like he says them independently as much as Theo did at about 15 months.  Hard to remember these things!

SO… back to the HOUSE.  I’m excited about the changes we’ve made so far with Ryan’s dad’s help.  We’ve got lots of bright ideas and it seems like everything is top priority.  Who knows when we’ll ever get it all done.  Here are a couple of before/after photos so far.

Front door:

Library:

(more of a “during” than an “after” pic)
Boys’ bathroom (in progress): 
Before 
Shower door removed

Cabinet doors removed 
I’m staining the cabinets black. So far, so good!

Ryan’s dad taking out some of the tile.
Ready to take the old tub out and put a new one in.

Obviously the bathroom is where we are spending the most of our energy right now.  Can’t wait to see the finished product and share it with you!  
Finally – our other big project, the kitchen. 
With carpet, appliance shed (corner), and brick backsplash.

Ryan’s dad, getting me started on tearing out the brick.

No brick, no appliance shed!  Looking so much better already.
So there you have it, that’s what we/I have been up to.  What do you think about the changes we’re making so far? 
miss you!
~C~

the hizzy, part 2: just when you thought it couldn’t get any uglier

Sorry for the looong break since my last post about the house.  Click the link to see photos of the exterior, entry, living room, library, and master suite.  A lot of people commented on facebook (thank you!) and the theme was something like this: “It’s not that bad!”

Well.  There’s a reason you feel that way, dear friends.  See, I saved some of the highlights for later, which is today. Kitchen and bathrooms.  Don’t get me wrong, we love the house. (Right? or we wouldn’t have bought it. Right?)  It has tons of space and a library! HELLO, a library!  But on more than one occasion, we have found ourselves elbow-deep in conversations that go like this: “What were we thinking? Clearly, we weren’t.”

Let’s get started.

Hi, mom!

The kitchen.  Yes, that’s carpet you see there.  I remember walking around the corner from the living room and seeing the kitchen for the first time. My first thought was: “that’s carpet.”  Then I looked around and saw how spacious the kitchen was, how much cabinet space it has, and how nice it would be to have that center island work space.  Initially we thought the little bill desk would be nice but we won’t really need it if we make the library our office space.  So now we’re talking about taking out half of the wall where the desk is to  open up the kitchen to the living room and put in a breakfast bar.  You know, because that will be fast and affordable.  You can kind of tell by the first photo that it’s an eat-in kitchen.  We like that.  We’re not the formal dining room type anyway.  I forgot to take a photo of the area but it is sufficiently sized.

I’d love to replace the cabinets but I think we will have to settle for painting them and replacing all the hardware.  We looked at a granite wholesaler Sunday and found this beautiful countertop for $25/sq. ft. installed! What a deal.  I could write fifty blog posts about what I want to do in the kitchen.  Better move on.

The boys’ bathroom.  What is the obsession with carpet?  It has to go, stat.  I love the amount of cabinet/storage space.  The cabinets are already painted a light gray. Thinking about just replacing the countertop and hardware and leaving the cabinets gray.  I’d like to add another sink and put in tile floors.  Not a fan of the blue bathtub but the gray tile is in good shape so I was thinking about trying to save it to save time and money.  Anyone know if we can just put a white insert tub right over that? Have to figure out some creative way to get rid of that safety bar.  Maybe replace a few random tiles with brightly colored ones?  Their bathroom is quite spacious.  It would be one of the first things to remodel, and hopefully before we move in, because it has the only bathtub in the house.

The hall bath, located between the front door and the kitchen.  More carpet! Weee!  The bathroom is unusually gigantic for a hall bath.  Not sure what we are going to do with this space.  We have a huge attic with room to finish some space.  We are thinking about eventually putting a 4th bedroom up there for guests and possibly using this bathroom as the stairway space.  So we might not do anything with this right away.  Is that light fixture supposed to be a joke?  And why do you need that much storage space in a half bath/hall bath?

I still have to show you the basement and the boys’ rooms.  They’re not bad.  The boys rooms pretty much just need paint and new window treatments.  I think the basement is okay, but Ryan has big plans for it.  I’ll post more about it later.

What do you think?  As bad as you thought or worse?

xo,
 ~C~