catch the moment: Wk.24

What a week! It’s been a blur of nonstop activity; a balanced mix of fun and obligation. But another week has flown by, nonetheless, and we’re almost to the halfway point of 2015 already. This week I finished up my series of recaps from our Walt Disney World vacation last month, including how we celebrated Dexter’s birthday and our last couple of days. I’m glad to be caught up on the posts but it’s just made me want to plan our next trip!! I love distracting myself with thoughts of my family making even more fun memories and having new adventures. Oh, daydreams. Back to reality – this summer (which technically has not even started as I write this post) is zipping by. We have plans almost every weekend in the foreseeable future, despite my attempts to keep some of our time free. That’s okay – it will just take us a little longer to get those pesky household projects done.

162/365: Thursday, June 11th. It was a hot, humid afternoon so I was surprised that the boys wanted to go out into the backyard and “hunt bugs,” but we did. We were only out there 5 minutes before Theo asked if we could explore the trails at a nearby park. So we walked to the park and took our time, tossing rocks in the creek and looking for bugs. It was a really fun nature walk and they didn’t complain at all about walking so far. P.S. I made sure to let Ryan know he’d be picking us up at the park before we made the long-for-little-legs journey. My Fitbit loved it and so did I.06-11-2015

163/365: Friday, June 12th. We had a quick and ferocious storm blow through our town Friday night and at about 7pm, we went outside to check out the damage. We had a few large tree limbs snap in the wind and zillions of sticks on the driveway and in the yard. We felt extremely lucky that none of it damaged our home. 06-12-2015

164/365: Saturday, June 13th. We met up with friends at Children’s Museum Indianapolis. I think I posted a picture of one or both of them playing in this sand the last time we went, but the light in this room is so nice that I couldn’t resist. And look at these bros, they are so cute – when they’re getting along. 06-13-2015

165/365: Sunday, June 14th. I was too busy having fun floating around on a raft with a drink in my hand to worry about taking pictures at the lake but this was the aftermath around 6pm. I felt very much the same! Being in the sun all day zapped the whole family.06-14-2015

166/365: Monday, June 15th. Cue the “it’s late, I forgot to take a picture, and I don’t care” photo. But seriously. This deserves to be documented. That get well soon balloon is from Dexter’s hospital stay April 29th – 30th. 7 weeks later and still going strong! The rest are from our little birthday celebration for Dexter on 5/30. Good thing I paid extra for “high float” so they’d last up to 48 hours. 06-15-2015

167/365: Tuesday, June 16th. Random, yes, but I just love the door to the building where we drop off the boys for summer camp. It’s a charming and stunning old house. I especially love the character of the chipped, layered red paint.06-16-2015

168/365: Wednesday, June 17th. The McDan Fam just upped the ante on our home fitness! These Bowflex weights are adjustable from 5 to 52.5 pounds apiece. They arrived today and they are awesome! 06-17-2015

This week, my favorite photos are the ones of Theo and Dexter playing in the sand and the doorknob. What’s your favorite?

I’m linking up with Mindi,Stephanie, and Carrie for week 24 of Catch the Moment.



balancing act

So I mentioned a couple posts back that I was really struggling to find balance in my life. I started this year with a few goals. One of them was that I was going to break free from running. Running and only running had tied me down and pinned me in. I had a big running resolution in 2014 that I couldn’t meet for many reasons (including weeks and months where no motivation was present) but a major one that derailed me more than once was injury. My knees are horrible to begin with but something happened to my foot in November that quickly ended my running for most of the remainder of the year.

I still run but I also decided to try new things. Yoga. Pilates. Zumba. Cycling. Water Fitness. Interval Training. Turbo Kick.  And I have tried all these new things except for Turbo Kick because frankly I’m scared to death. But I will. Eventually. I have learned that exercise SHOULD be fun. It should be something to look forward to and not dread, as I felt many times before. Something that I can’t miss, not something that I can be easily talked out of doing.

Good news: All of these classes are offered for free at the YMCA. Bad news: Class times that I am able to make are at the worst times. There’s childcare available, but my kids have gone from tolerating it to hating it. {The last time I took them, Theo said it smelled like a huge poopy diaper in there and he was never going back. True, it did smell like a huge poopy diaper when I picked them up.} Now that Theo’s 5, he would go to the next age group which would mean Dexter would be left all alone in the stinky baby room. I can’t do that to them. So, I can only go when Ryan is home. Which means a few things: 1. Ryan and I can never exercise together. 2. Every time I go to a class, I am missing out on family time. 3. The more time I spend away from home at the gym, the less convenient it is for Ryan to also get a workout in.

It sucks. Number 2 is the big doozy for me. I would love to work out with Ryan but the main reason I’ve been struggling with balance lately is because I LOVE my classes. I love going to the gym. I look forward to the physical strength I feel and challenging myself through difficult moves. Depending on the day, I might see my kids for 2-4 hours on a weeknight. They are still asleep when I leave the 2 mornings that Ryan takes them to school. To be gone for an hour and a half or more on a day when I barely see them to begin with flat out sucks. Ryan is doing the majority of the care for the children on these days, such as bathing and putting them to bed, but he’s also playing games and reading them bedtime stories while I’m away. One night last week I put on my pajamas before I cooked dinner and Theo practically shouted with glee, “Mommy! You’re not going to exercise tonight!?” When I told him I was staying home, he jumped up and down and ran and told his brother that mommy wasn’t going anywhere.


I have been feeling that way too – guilty – but hearing him say it just made me want to puke. I feel like I’ve been selfish, but have I really? I found workouts that I LOVE and look forward to. I feel strong. I don’t want to stop going to my classes. In fact, I wish I could go to more but that’s not realistic or fair to my family. I wish I could find more time in the day. I have been feeling a little bit better about it this week because I have been making a conscious effort to spend more quality time with the boys while we’re together. I included them in my many chores over the weekend and they actually helped. We played together and we worked together. I took the time to sit on the couch and watch a whole movie with them instead of taking advantage of the opportunity to get things done while they were distracted. Dexter sat on my lap and Theo laid his head on my arm. I have been missing out on something that I didn’t even know I was missing. Not only because I’m gone too much but because it’s right there and I haven’t been making it a priority.

I can justify 2 weeknights at the gym (2 nights that I don’t put my kids to bed or spend quality time with them) for the betterment of myself and indirectly, my family. But what if I want to take a 3rd class? Or a friend asks me to dinner one week and a different set of girls are getting together 2 weeks later. Then there’s a team dinner or a fundraiser the next 2 weeks. Then a haircut appointment the following week that’s going to take 2 hours. All of the sudden, I’m very overwhelmed. If I don’t give up my 2 weeknight workouts, I’ll end up being gone 3-4 nights a week every week. It’s just way too much. Time is flying and I don’t want to regret being gone more than I was home when I look back one day. I guess I’m struggling the most with not wanting to miss out on time with my family but not giving up everything else that I enjoy. I don’t want to lose out on friendships because I always say “no,” but I know I can’t say “yes” every time either.

So what I really need is to add about 6 hours to every weekday – I guess I could give up sleep but I’m not sure my friends or kids would want to hang out at 3am. The gym isn’t open and neither is my work. I know it’s a good problem to have, if there is such a thing. It’s great that I have friends and family and my health. Quitting my job is not an option. So how can I have it all without sacrificing myself? Is that even a thing?  I will keep trying to make more of an effort to be present, and really present, when I am home with my guys. I will say no sometimes. But not every time. And I will probably keep feeling guilty for not being at any one place as often as I wish.



a (snowy) day in the life

This week’s bonus challenge for my Catch the Moment 365 project was to capture “a day in the life.” I should probably do a work day, but that’d probably be even MORE boring than a typical weekend day in our lives. It was kind of easy to do the challenge today since we didn’t go anywhere due to the 8 inches of snow that got dumped on us overnight. BOO!

I did this challenge a year ago (HERE) and enjoyed looking back at it. Dexter especially looks so little!


Breakfast…breakfast…what should (can) I fix for breakfast?


Coffee & crayons while waiting for breakfast.aditl02

Blueberry biscuits and chicken sausage.aditl03


Fresh out of the bathtub with some suave looking hair.aditl05

“Dexter, show me your blue eyes.”aditl06

Lord Business. Legos…always Legos. aditl07

Folding laundry and running the vacuum.aditl08

Decorated a little bit for Easter/springtime.aditl09

Found something else to get us in a less snowy state of mind.aditl10

Dexter helped get the cookies ready to bake while I worked on chili for lunch.aditl11

Can’t forget the cheese and crackers.aditl12



Obsessed with letters and numbers.aditl14

More laundry…more folding and putting away.aditl15

Decorating some more for Easter with window decals.aditl16

Time for a little fitness. Ryan and I busted out some Jillian Michaels moves.aditl17

And the boys “watched a show” (jumped, wrestled, yelled, fought, laughed, etc) in our room while we did our 20 minute workout.aditl18

Random tortilla snack. aditl19

And back to coloring.aditl20


Sigh…so much snow. 8″ I think?aditl21

Dinner preppin’.aditl22

Dinner eatin’. Cubed steak & gravy, cheesy spirals, and asparagus. Mmm.aditl23

After dinner jammies and iPad time. More laundry.aditl24

More games, more laundry.aditl25

Lite Brite before bed. aditl26

And that takes us to about 8pm, which is when I started working on this post…don’t worry, you’re not going to miss much. I’m just gonna lay on the couch and watch TV for an hour or two then hit the hay.

This was fun to put together! I know I’ll appreciate seeing the small moments when I look back on this a year from now. Hope you enjoyed your day – and mine!